Faith & Fear

>> Friday, May 21, 2010

Since my last post, God has been showing me all the ways I should be letting go and giving my fear to Him.  In the blogs I read and my bible readings and even the books I'm reading.  I know all this is right to begin with and with all this gentle prodding from God, I am becoming stronger and stronger in my faith that He is the one to handle my fears.  NOT ME.  I have to TRUST Him to deliver me from the evil I fear.  He IS enough.

The next couple of weeks I am on vacation with my father in Iowa.  He is aging and has been driving himself from Texas to Iowa to see his brothers/sisters for the past few years.  This year he didn't feel confident enough to make the trip alone, so he asked me to help him drive.  Since I don't work, I am able to stay the three weeks or so that he wants to stay.  Actually, I think he would stay longer if it was just him, but since we are leaving the dogs in my husband's care, dad is coming home sooner.  Dad doesn't like them left alone too long during the day, but my husband has to work.  I won't let him retire!

There was a dinner last evening for my dad's high school graduating class at the Hale Supper Club.  They meet at different places around Anamosa, IA (where my dad is from) each month and have a great time.  There's lots of talking and laughing and eating.  Last night there were 21 attending, 19 of them over the age of 80 - two of us were daughters - it was wonderful to see them enjoying each other's company and telling stories on each other.

 My dad - doesn't he look hungry????

And my Aunt Vernice tagged along with us too!

I feel very fortunate to have time with family, no matter how old or young.  We grew up away from all of them...we were the "rebels" - my dad was in the service and then worked on the space program. So we didn't live in Iowa near the family...we just visited.  We did come to live for awhile, but the whole family didn't stay and we missed them, so we moved back to Texas...crazy, huh?  What were we thinking????  I miss it so much!!  I miss the family and I miss our friends.  One day...

Until next time,
Keep it from the heart,



>> Monday, May 3, 2010

I fear.

I fear everything.

I fear I don't pray enough or hard enough.

I fear I don't trust God enough.

I fear pain.

I fear my pain will never go away.

I fear people. (Sometimes even those closest to me.)

I fear being subjected to the looks I get when I don't meet other's standards.

I fear rejection.

There you have it.  The source of my anxieties: fear.  It doesn't seem like one should have all that fear if they trust in God, right?  Well, I do trust in God...with all my heart!  Is it enough?  I don't has to be enough for me, right now, right at this point in my life, as I continue to grow my faith in Christ.  I'm doing what I can to do that and I know I'm fighting a battle with Satan along the way...I'm sure it's one you all experience or have experienced.  

I stay in prayer, read my bible, read Christian books, and I have found a new source of uplifting in my day through the many blogs I have I had the privilege to become acquainted with on the net.  I know God has led me this direction and He will continue to lead me in whatever direction I need to qualm my fears and anxieties.  He is enough.

I want to share this:

Our Work Is To Believe
The work that God requires of us is to believe, and believing requires that we cleave to, trust in, rely on, and have faith in Him and His Son Jesus Christ.  If we truly have faith in God, if we truly lean our entire personality on Him in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness, we will not be anxious or worried.  We will quit trying to build ourselves and will allow Him to build us and equip us.  (Author Unknown)

Until next time,
Keep it from the heart,

ISIAH 43:1-4
1 But now, this is what the LORD says—he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.  When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
3 For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; I give Egypt for your ransom, Cush and Seba in your stead.
4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life.

The Lord is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid? Psalm 27:1

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